This whole month is much harder than ive expected, never thought that i could hold on til now,
thought i was going to crash straight away. The whole thing is torturing me, i keep asking why me, why my family, why now, everything seems aint going to end. Had some days suffered from depression, i had my brain shut down for a few times, it was lucky enuf that i hadnt totally collapsed. How i wish things were gonna be okay, how desperately i hope things will turn better, 
i pray all those trouble could soon pass away, then i could go on with my life, 
and be myself again.


time to wipe the tears.